Posted on 9:07 PM | By Amy Young | In
This week has been kind of rough for me. I'm debating whether or not to return to school for the summer session. The dilemma is that now I have a four month old baby at home and I'm trying to weigh out my options. I do not want to put her in daycare, but my boyfriend may have to start working outside the home soon. It is a fine and delicate balance sometimes. Weighing out options and choices often makes me feel extremely burdened and lost. In the past I have felt so paralyzed by options that I don't even act at all. Sometimes I feel that so afraid of doing the "wrong" thing that I don't do anything which is counter productive to my goals and where my family needs to be. The baby has been a blessing but also a stress factor in returning when and how I should finish my degree. This week I'm focusing on trusting in myself that I will make the right decisions and that everything will fall into place the way it should. I am reading an excellent book about how to free yourself from old thoughts and create a new theme for your life. My old theme was fear. My new theme is courage. I'm going to start believing in myself much more than I ever have in order to free myself from old burdens.
I went through tons of boxes I had in the garage this week. I threw out so much and felt a little sad afterwards. I had all of these boxes that I thought were so important and when I went through it honestly, I realized how much crap was weighing me down. I really like this idea about picking a new theme for my life and I'm going to run with it. The old boxes represented something I used to be and it was sad letting go of that. It's also a little depressing when you realize you keep moving with a bunch of crap and your life can be boxed up so easily. You really can't think of it like that though. It's important to constantly change, grow, and literally "shed" parts of you that are no longer relevant. I honestly feel that my life has been stagnant for many years, until now, of course. My new baby Scarlet has really made me evaluate how poorly I adapt to change. She is constantly changing and constantly growing and I have to move with her. It's not enough to watch your children grow, you have to grow too. This week has really been about stepping out of what I'm afraid of and confronting it head on.
I use my positive affirmations everyday to help me cope with change and grow. I don't want to be stagnant like I was. I want to thrive and prosper and fulfill all of my dreams. Not only for my sake, but for my family's sake too. The positive affirmations I'm working on now are to help me stop being afraid of change and truly thrive in this beautiful world that blesses me every single day.
My positive affirmations for the week are
I am flexible and adaptable to change.
I allow myself the freedom to grow and thrive.
I welcome change and I trust in God to provide me with the flexibility needed to adapt.
I am free of past burdens and let the past die peacefully.
I trust in the process of life to open up doors for me wherever I go.
Every decision I make is divinely inspired and leads me to my greatest good.
